For most of his life, Amaree Steward was confident in everything except Jesus.

He trusted discipline, performance, and approval to define who he was. Basketball gave him structure, certainty, and identity—but when the lights went off, so did the confidence. What looked like success on the outside slowly unraveled on the inside.

In "Everything But God" , Amaree shares a raw and honest journey through identity loss, quiet despair, and the moment where everything came down to a single choice: life or death.

From building identity through performance to numbing pain through distraction, this Christian memoir explores what happens when your way stops working—and what it means to surrender control when faith is no longer theoretical.

This is not a story of instant healing or perfect faith. It’s a story of choosing life when darkness feels overwhelming, and discovering that real freedom doesn’t come from becoming more—but from finally letting go.

If you’ve ever felt stuck between who you are and who you’re called to be, this book is for you.

— A Christian Memoir